The ride has become tedious. I am tired of the same old same old. Same old.......Same......old.
Have you ever been on an amusement park ride that was whipping you around too much? that was threatening to make you lose your lunch and if it didn't stop soon you couldn't be held accountable for what happened next?
This isn't like that.
Instead, it is like an old-fashioned record player. The music has stopped, and yet the record goes around and around and around and around, with nothing to commend it except the monotonous blip........blip........blip as it gets to the end with nowhere else to go.
And it is my own fault. I am not making good use of my precious gift of time. I don't feel needed. I don't feel productive. I don't....anything. blip.......blip.......blip.